Even though it hurts, what I keep doing is not giving up. I just can't give up on the things I'm used to. I am sure that if I leave behind the things that I know are harmful to me, my quality of life will increase a lot. It is more difficult to give up because I am used to the environments I am in and the people I love. I guess I'd better do a human detox sometime. If I remove toxic people from my life, everything will be fine.